deliberation - think n discuss

oct22-dec20 ...The ILP !

2007-12-29T01:20:00.000-08:00

Its bin a long time since i visited or posted on this blog ! A long time since i even thot abt it !
but kno wat i was a lil busy with ma work :p After days of restlessness i ve decided to blog ..!
After sitting at home & cooling my heels for more than 5 months ,I left for trivandrum for ma ILP-training !
Initial days of my training were pathetic ..i found myself cribbing for evvvverrrryy single thing....bt now i m missing the fun,the laughter, i m missing everything like crazy ...!
the ever prolonging gossip sessions...the energetic shuttle sessions ...dinner @ the dhabas...!
my roommate the pogathey pogathey gal ,varuni's thot provoking advises,supi's german,swa's murukku....simply amazing !!! unforgettable.. !
The best part was the dance practice ..lol...will always stay green in remembrance ..the fun we had jus cannot be penned down ...!
and ma bday !... probably one of the best bdays of ma lyf ..full of surprises and yummy cakes ( luv u all for those heart touching moments ! )
If i dont mention this here this post will nt be complete ! The mokkais of J (the jp nagar boi) & sp (avana nee ??) kept us all alive during the difficult moments of our training !
( * windows vista * odd man out * server down * pass panuda are few of those ...for further details contact them in person...! )
We had some amazing singers,comedians,entertainers in our batch ,whom i ll surely miss ...!

I learnt german(officially ) n kannada (unofficially) and tried learning spanish from mallipoo( reemy).....!
Apart from that i was a lil successful in preaching gau's slang to my associates (appama...go keep shop.. !!) lol!!

On the last day of our training we clicked more than a 100 pics n parted with a heavy heart ..hopin to meet everyone again sometime ( in sametime...tcsers will kno wat tht is ) !!

These are some of my random thoughts abt my exp during ILP ...probably i ll write a more detailed version soon ...!

Fear of the unknown !

2007-08-20T12:54:00.000-07:00

dono y exactly i gave such a name to my post !
anyways ......
it seems like an eon... !! patience levels seem to hav hit an ebb these days
i know i m cribbing far 2 more abt being majorly vetti ...!
major is an understatement thoh !
past few days i hav compelled myself to sit down and to do some "thinking"
about my future!
"is everything goin rite ? or just seems to be??
A part of me thinks its just fine, another is worried i m thinking tht way !
everybody goes thru this phase where they qtn everything !
so began a journey of introspection !
am i doin the right thing !?!?
bin pestering ppl who i think know me really well to help me go about
shaping my future...bt realised lately tht no1 knows me better than myself !
The most depressing part of the whole story is tht i hav neva bin passionate
towards anything !a sad reality !
is this job wat i want ???
its kinda amusing actually to find ppl around me throwing themselves on feet
asking me to re-consider my decision.
and with few ppl around me going off to pursure their higher education
hmmm...with my gate preps goin to drains( i kno most ppl readin this are gonna kill me !i ll start preps from tomo for sure...!) m scared !!!!
bewildered n confused !
after hrs,days n weeks of "thinking" i finally realised i still haven stepped
into the next phase of my life and m worrying abt it already !
"hindsight is better than foresight"
"hey cmon be positive,wats wrong with u?!? " quoting my mom verbatim !
i guess i derive all my positive energy from her ! just an hour of
conversation with her was so enlightening tht at the end of it i realised i hav all the time in the world to make mistakes n to recover from them as well !
"jollya iru ! " i told myself ! :)

whats in a name?? well everything is !!

2007-08-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

The day began with me waking up really early (like compared to every other day
it was much early ) after some continuous yelling my mom !
i m fed up to the brim with this perpetual complaint "i dont wake up early "
aaaaaaaarggh... this happens everyday ...!!
i was in one of those freaky moods,ready to lash out on anything when ma mom reminded me tht i had to make an enquiry 4 a frnd of mine .............
After a long wait at this end some guy picked up the fone ...i had to wait for
12 rings ....man !! i had lost all my patience by then...!
the conversation begun... he spoke with an accented and highly adulterated english,
it was a mix of tamil,telugu n english with a more of a telugu accent !

mr.X:blah blah blah
me:blah blah
mr.X: ur name maam ?
me:prithyukshaa
mr.X:?!!?...beg ur pardon
me:prithyukshaa *grrrrrr*
mr.X:?!?@@?#!? maam
me:*grrrrrrrrrr*
i repeated !
mr.X:u mean "prisha " ?
me:*u moron cant ya get it right *
i jus bluntly said "no"
mr.X:neva mind !

i hung up !!!!!!! go to hell....!
does it really matter what u r called...well,yes of course at least to me !!
y cant ppl get my name right...
btw whats the right way ??!?! :(

after brooding over this issue,a string of thoughts formed in my mind....
i kno my name is complicated...bt one lovely thing abt having such a complicated
name is tht u tend to get nice nicknames ...sumtimes really cute ones!!
lemme tell ya the story behind my name...
ppl at home wanted to give me a unique name...it was supposed to be pratheeksha
meaning expectation !
i guess a few doses of numerology and the creativity of my granddad and dad transformed my name into how it is now...
just a guess ...how my name came to be is still a mystery to me...the enigma remains!!
At times i do suffer from this wanna-change-my-name syndrome bt all my valiant attempts
towards it have failed miserably,i just cant convince my parents...

hmmm all said and done,there is this particular bonding i have got towards my name,hey
come on its my IDENTITY !!Its nice to hav a different name as long as ppl get it the right way!
In the end it all comes to getting used to whatever ppl call ya !

The memory remains.....!!

2007-07-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

Was a little overwhelmed by the wave of nostalgia..hehe , thts y i suddenly jumped into writting this post ! hey m not gonna get emotional ,pardon me if i do !!!!!
...hmmm ...hmmmm....

In school i was a lil weak in the art of makin frnds...jus had say sum 10-odd frnz, bt no one in particular to be named as "the best ".....i was a loner then !!

But college life turned out to be completely different..i made a hell of lot of frnz !!

hmmm.....HI-BYE frnz those ppl who i would occasionally bump into flukily and try to devise some weird conversation for the sake of it !!!
made a lot of such frnz...At times i would end up waving a "hi" to every single soul i could see..!
An aura of unexplainable joy would reign over me every time i do that...!!
(wow...i kno so many ppl :D )

now category 2...lunch time frnz n bus mates...the pals with whom i would sit together n vividly share gossips !
ppl who would " enlighten " me abt the happenings of the world...lol...
Trust me ..i hav seen some real professional gossipers ,movie buffs & admired them as well !
( times of endless laughter !! )

next...study buddies ( cool name isnt it?!?! )
combined studies ,whoever came up with that idea (my mom is on a look out for u ,are yaar go hide somewhere...lol !!)
"buddies" with whom i shared the burden of those annauniv exams ( yuck i hate xams...yuck !)
we ,together, learnt the art of selective learning ...
"hey pass aagarthuku ena padikkanam de??" ..
lol one qtn thats still reverberating in ma ears.... !!
apparently i din fall into that category ...i was a so called padips ..dono y ppl concluded tht way ...
( those endless phone conversations the night b4 the exams...!! unforgettable !! )

aaaaah ma intimate chummily frnz with whom i would share all ma secrets !! luv them !!! ..would talk abt almost everything right from "patchees " to future plans....!!
the only best thing that happened to me in coll life !!

its bin ages since i act penned down sumthin...now tht i hav jumped on to the blogging bandwagon nice to be writting atleast "SOMETHING" ...mayb thts y i ended up writtin "SOMETHING " like this...lol... !!

Here it is,My blog s born .......!!!

2007-07-16T07:36:00.001-07:00

In an earnest attempt to shrug off a little of "vettiness" which had accumulated into my lyf in the past few months (wel mayb much b4 tht ....),here i am into the world of blogs!
aaahhh finally,i have got some space to call it my own to
give words to few of the multitudinous ideas
tht i possess ( !@!!#!!^!% <--thts jus a sample)

After exhausting all the things i could possibly think of, this is one sincere step ( 'yet another' rather... ) which i take to break away from my slothful n indolent attitude and try indulging(!) in something constructive!!!!!
After a lot of procrastination ,well ya "i am into blogging ".. gonna voice my views for the world (!!?!?!?) to see ...

well thts abt it i guess :D ! my FIRST blog...am finally gratifying my desire to give life to my priceless thoughts..!
i hereby welcum myself to this new world n wish myself all luck..hehe